My 3 month summer break back home is coming to an end. 5 more days till I leave and it'll be another year and a half before I come back again (if all goes according to plan). I've been pretty busy this summer and haven't had much time to actually indulge in my favourite activity... thinking...
Anyway, I guess that as the time draws nearer, the thoughts automatically come, and so do the emotions. It's weird. Anyone who knows me well knows that I am not a very emotional person. In fact, I've been told off a few times by Stacey for being emotionless... Nonetheless, I am human.
Yesterday, I sat down on the benches near the grotto in church, and suddenly all the memories came back to me. I will really miss the times just chilling in church, sitting on the benches, waiting for random people to come and sit and talk, watching people pray. All the times I spent talking with my friends, and now watching them grow up... and the thought of some of them not being there when I next return just popped up.
This morning, again when I sent my brother for Sunday School lessons, the thoughts came back again. Over in Ireland, I set out at 10.50am for Mass at 11 and then talk a slow walk home afterwards. I'm going to miss hanging out with friends, having breakfast and just sitting under the shed, talking and watching people go around. There's nothing of that sort there, and I'll miss my usual Sunday mornings here.
Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy life in Dublin. I enjoy the freedom that I get, the company of some people over there. But what I'm talking about are the people I grew up with, the people I really know, the people who have shaped who I am today and not just any person I have just met for a year. Strong bonds are not just cultured in day or a year, but it takes a lot of patience, trials an tribulations before it is permanently attached.
Well, I guess that that's life. Everyone has to grow up some day, everyone will need to move on with his or her own life, and then all we can do is to reminisce the times that we had.
Sunday, September 9
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Hey,
Maybe with I'm different but I've never thought or seen you as emotionless.
To me, you are like a frozen river all calm, cold and sometimes harsh on the surface but beneath that surface of ice is a fast flowing river full of life & activity, full of loving & caring.
Glad to know you have been hit by awareness. It comes with quietness.Take care.
Remember, smile! you have a lovely one! =)
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